*Ruby*
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it isn't always i am well
for sometimes i am ailing
and yet in steaming night i smile
to downplay this my failing
and make a noise to bury all
of your weeping and your wailing
and then in bed by little light
and closed off from it all
i must try and bring a conscious end to night
and hope that dreams begin to fall

the color of my dreams, they would be you...ruby
oh if i could close my eyes and bring you to me
push your head into
make you not you not you not you but me


and then in dreams i wander free
and see some things i'm meant to see
and sometimes even i see thee

and would the night go on and on
and not tomorrow end at dawn
and whatever mat i lay upon
dissolve

the color of my dreams, if i had dreams, they would be you...ruby
everything i do is done to bring you closer to me
when you sleep your breath it blows right on through me

the color of my dreams, if i had dreams, they would be you...ruby
the color of my dreams, they would be you...ruby

and illness be or wellness thrive
my dream proves i am yet alive
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*worse than yesterday*
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ll see you later, i can't imagine why
i'd start allergic reactions
pour some more sand dear, cover ankle bites
you want it easy, you're kidding?

boy you've gone and done it now
your stuck down the center, in left of the middle
all those jokes and silly games
you've wasted so much time.
boy you've gone and made a mess
stuck down in the middle, right left of the center
all these symptomatic things
are worse than yesterday

so sick and tired of automatic wash
why you don't you do me a favor
i love the smell of arbitrary loss
i want it easy, i'm dreaming

boy you've gone and done it now
your stuck down the center, in left of the middle
all those jokes and silly games
you've wasted so much time.
boy you've gone and made a mess
stuck down in the middle, right left of the center
all these symptomatic things
are worse than yesterday

maybe i could give it one more try

boy you've gone and done it now
your stuck down the center, in left of the middle
all those jokes and silly games
you've wasted so much time.
boy you've gone and made a mess
stuck down in the middle, right left of the center
all these symptomatic things
are worse than yesterday
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*TRUTH IS*
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"oh BABY YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME" SHE SAID
"oh BABY YOU'RE THE BEST THING THAT I EVER HAD...
oh BABY YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME" SHE SAID
"oh BABY YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I'M NEVER BAD...
yeah BABY YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME" SHE SAID

I'M TELLING LIES AGAIN - SHE DIDN'T REALLY CARE
I'M TELLING LIES AGAIN - SHE DID IT EVERYWHERE
I'M TELLING LIES AGAIN - SHE DIDN'T EVER NEED
"oh BABY YOU'RE EVERYTHING
EVERYTHING TO ME... "

"oh BABY YOU'RE SO EASY TO BELIEVE" SHE SAID
"oh BABY YOU'RE THE ONE THING THAT I NEVER HAD...
oh BABY YOU'RE SO EASY TO BELIEVE" SHE SAID
"oh BABY YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I'M NEVER SAD...
yeah BABY YOU'RE SO EASY TO BELIEVE" SHE SAID

I'M TELLING LIES AGAIN - SHE DIDN'T REALLY COME
I'M TELLING LIES AGAIN - SHE DID IT EVERY ONE
I'M TELLING LIES AGAIN - SHE DIDN'T EVER LEAVE
"oh BABY YOU'RE SO EASY
SO EASY TO BELIEVE...
yeah BABY YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME" SHE SAID

I NEVER REMEMBER IF I'M HIM OR HER OR ME...
DO I WAKE UP IN OR OUT OF THIS?
AS THEM OR YOU OR WE?
I NEVER REMEMBER WHO I WONDERED
WHEN I WAS
IF THEY EVER WERE
THE WHY OR WHERE
THE HOW AND WHAT WAS LOST...

TRUTH IS - I'M NEVER THE SAME
TRUTH IS - I'M NEVER TO BLAME
TRUTH IS - I'M NEVER IN PAIN
TRUTH IS I'M LYING I'M LYING I'M LYING I'M LYING...

TRUTH IS I'M LYING AGAIN
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*pure genius*
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oh, the lights are blinking
here's the great deceiver
bling, bling all bets are off
it goes unnoticed
if not for me it goes unnoticed

find another record
play another record
it could be anything
I play the jukebox
I play the dj
I could be vice, FBI
I played the imbecile
And no one noticed
And no one noticed

oh boy, come see the plans
they're pure genius
pure genius
oh boy, come see the plans

oh, you wouldn?t notice
here they come
see them tumble
my lucky numbers
here they come
i?ve got lots of secrets
man, I've lots of secrets
you're my number one
and you're my number one

oh boy, come see the plans
they're pure genius
pure genius
oh boy, get with the program, man
come see the plans
they?re pure genius
you understand, you understand

oh, the lights are blinking
turn off the stereo
it wears the batteries
they're double A?s
come morning
I?ll sleep like a dog
And dream of numbers
My lucky numbers

Here they come
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*It's still happening*
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I was screaming in my head or mouthing help me help me
Repeatedly...
All those people hanging out
While looking over my shoulder at the older, taller man saying ,no,no,no,.!
All those people hanging out
In a place I did not recognize.
He was filling up a clear plastic box with colored candy, colored nuts...
all sold by the weight.?
Here's where it all begins

I guess I?m stayin' here tonight
So shut the door and shut off the light
I guess I?m stayin' here tonight
It?s been a long time

My first painting in class.
I'll be late
He took one to finish it, painting white on the background.
I got upset.
So don't stay up and wait
The painting didn't end up in the show, he told me later
it was because the teacher said it wasn't good at all.
We were pretending this in the lobby earlier..
But  I don't play bass!
I?ll come back here to you
As my grandmother pointed out 4 crocodiles
(or maybe they were alligators)

I guess I?m stayin? here tonight
So shut the door and shut off the light
I guess I?m stayin' here tonight
It?s been a long time

All those people hanging out
So I?ll be late
Don?t stay up and wait

I guess I'm stayin' here tonight
So shut the door and shut off the light
I never made it home last night
It's been a long time
It's been a long time
It's been a long time

*Movement of Fear*

your eyes flash bright
but no longer have fire
everywhere you turn
this world is your shadow
with a pretty face
you burn so many eyes

?this is the movement of fear?

weird pop
you can't control
a smashing guy
a sack of gold
teach me to be happy
teach me control

this is the movement of fear?
this is the movement of fear?

loved the stare
that never cracked
loved the doors
they were never locked
loved the fools
at your fingertips

?this is the movement of fear?
?this is the movement of fear?
?this is the movement of fear?
?this is the movement of fear?
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*sleepwalking away*
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places where i like to hide
rooms that i built in my mind
have trapped me from my dreams at night

tears that drip from my eyes
help soak this silky disguise
pull back my mask and watch me die

sleep walking away
sleep walking away
take my hand, follow me
a killer lurks inside

tossing and turning i fight
my stomache can't hold whats inside
the promise of sleep i can't find

a sleepwalkers murderous plight
to kill the demons at night
has left me with no place to hide

sleep walking away
sleep walking away
take my hand, follow me
a killer lurks inside

take my hand
hold my heart
kiss my scar
hold me tight

wake up
wake up
wake up
for the killer lurks inside
wake up
wake up
for the killer lurks inside
wake up
wake up
save me from my murderous plight
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*Crude sunlight*
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careful, they think i'm sleeping
if i could just trick this machine
oh god, who are they
and what does it mean
no i can't let them touch me
and i can't let them see
crack in the wall
the only place i can crawl for safety
i'm crawling inside
but i've still got to know
why am i afraid to go
had i slipped into the wrong door
even though it felt so fine
crude sunlight rolling through my window
telling me it's not your time
and still the voices calling
c'mon
crack in the wall
the only place i can crawl to safety
when i was dead
three headless voices that said they loved me
such a love was blinding
there i can't fall
and the floor is the wall i'm scaling
gonna give them all the slip
i've had it
i've got to abandon ship
never gonna go back there
never gonna go back there
the last minute
i've got to abandon ship
shivering under a wave
another lonely seasons slave
i've had it
i've got to abandon it
let me start all over again
this couldn't be the end
there's something i've got to say
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